Mealtime

So today is day 4 of sugar-free-ness. Still hard, but it does make me very awake. Maybe that's what I don't like? Maybe my tendency, and what I've defined as my 'natural state of being' is far more numb than being sugar-free allows. Eating well and making healthy choices in general requires one to be pretty awake. I know Traby emailed me some thoughts the other day (Traby, the blog misses you!) about the simplicity (and ultimately difficulty!) of bringing awareness and compassion to every bite we take. That's new to both of us, and imagine most people. I wonder if those eating habits were influenced by the way my family prepared and enjoyed meals? I'm sure it comes from a bit of everything.

These days, eating with my fiance is sometimes challenging. He's a fast eater. He LOVES food and gets lost in the visceral enjoyment of chewing, swallowing and digesting. It's sweet, but I have the tendency to eat just as fast, which, while it works for him, doesn't work for me. The fast pace takes me away from the sensation of getting full - integral to my portion control! So I have to consciously slow down when we share meals together. When I'm with Traby, we talk so much that we just naturally eat slow. Maybe I need to blather on more during dinner! HA!