Thursday, June 19, 2008

Still Here


Wow, KB. 12 days sugar-free is so amazing. I'm so proud of you for continuing to meet your goal! And so glad to hear that you're feeling positive results from your choice to eliminate sugar. You've inspired me to make tomorrow day one (because I already had sugar today and want to start with a new, clean day).

A lot has happened over my super long hiatus from blogging. Mostly I reverted back to my old habitual state of doing things without self-presence, and not just around eating, either. But some grace has come in, and once again I'm remembering that I want to be present to myself and my own life.

I was recently introduced to the concept of GRACE and SELF-EFFORT being the two wings on the bird that flies to God. I love that marriage of grace and self-effort. I know the beauty of grace in my life...for example, I'm someone who can go into feeling a lot of gratitude easily. What a great way into my heart! But the self-effort is so foreign to me...I tell myself I can't do anything before I even have a chance to try something effortful or disciplined. There's definitely still a little girl in me who wants to rebel against anything effortful, who thinks that effort is a punishment instead of knowing the ultimate reward of giving myself the health and balance that I want. I just need to start telling my little girl to hush up now. Hush now. Shhhhhh. Time for the adults to take over.

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