Honesty

So, I just had a 3 Muskateers candy bar and it tasted superb. I know, I'm trying for SFDs, but it's been a rough coupla days. I'm in the midst of thinking about big wedding plans and now, kind of accidentally, suddenly considering the idea of buying a house (don't worry, Maki, I know it's still in the thinking stage!) but my mother's in the hospital and my POW is unusually stressful as well. And, I'm PMSing (I know Traby is too!) So I've had some strong sugar cravings. Even after a difficult weekend of eating out with friends and making pretty good choices, I still had them. So I decided to have a little something. A little something. My usual sugar-cravings aren't little, so this, ironically, is big for me. I had one candy bar. And as far as candy bars go, not a terribly bad one. It was great how good it tasted too! They're definitely not one of my favorite candy bars, definitely not something I'd choose for a binge. So, this was actually good. I don't believe my whole life is going to be SF but for now, SF is how it needs to be most, if not all of the time. Sugar begets sugar, as Traby says and I know it's true. So, though I don't regret my delicious candy bar tonight, I know it's not going to be easy tomorrow to have that sugar messin' around inside me. But, I really believe in intention. And in honesty. The minute I 'hide' this sugar, is the minute it gains power and I become helpless and full of shame. I don't feel bad for eating it, that's part of the root of where my eating habits went wrong in the first place. It's ok. And it tasted good.